Pardon me, Mister.

        Been trying to sleep for the past 5 hours now :| tried reading my newest blog, caught some worng grammars i was too lazy to edit em', so please bare with me. what to write. let me see. Im currently listening to Jack Johnson while tweeting. Today was rest day, I was supposed to do a lot of things for my ojt but ended up procrastinating and watching  movies. Today I finished watching "Love in the Time of Cholera" ill write a blog about it the next time. Then next "The Social Network" let me see if im inspired enough to make a blog for that one. and next "DUE DATE" which I'm not planning to write anything about, the movie speaks for it self ha!

         Today, I was thinking about this young boy i met yesterday from my errand from my latest blog, well he isn't really that young, his about 21. When I first saw him i thought he was cute but then hated the highlights in his hair lol. I saw him starring at me most of the time. At the end of the night, he offered to give me a ride in his handsome pick up truck to wherever I was going. I said okay then, We talked the whole time, It was really funny how he asked questions about me, There was this one time, he segwayed to know if i had a boyfriend by asking like "so your boyfriend isn't mad you going out this late" and more lame segways! it was a fun ride with him. He was a good looking guy. but i thought to myself, Im not ready with any of these, not now. Im doing really good. I'm progressing. Dating isn't really an option for me now it will just lead me to hope for something i feel like wont happen but heck Jane it was just a ride stop being such a paranoid but hey you cant blame me. boys will be boys and I'm sure i can tell you a thing or two about them based on my experiences.

           I had no battery when I woke up, I was eager to charge my phone so that I could thank him, but then I was thinking, I don't want to be back here you know, focusing on unimportant things rather than keeping my eyes on the prize! I don't need a distraction right now. Anyway, I keep on pushing him away through my one word wierd texts. I dont know if Im doing the right thing. but I cant stop thinking about the butterflies when I was with him. God Im sorry, please forgive me, thank you and I love you.

Accidental, Incidental: God Im sorry, please forgive me, Thank you and I love you.

            Yesterday was a Saturday, came from my apartment immediately and went straight home to our house in Makati. It took me so long for i got lost in Gateway mall. i know effer right. i got home at around past 6pm. i took a shower and changed, i opted for  a look that can see my most promising edges of my face and body, base on what i see though! haha went to Robinsons Galleria Mall to meet with someone who was going to interview me for modelling. Thats right folks you heard me right, im five foot 3 dark brown hair with a mix of red cellophane in it, throw in some borwn skinned big nosed indian-filipina girl. I was so excited, so i sat there meeting this friend who has a friend that has friend and believe me it goes on. i waited for the first interviewer after a few hours bought cofee and recieved a bad news that she wasnt coming but kept my hopes high cos my friend says another interviewer was coming. It was about 8pm when i got to our meeting place starbucks robinsons galleria, at about 9pm the i got the news about the first interviewer. At about that time, my friends friend who was a CEO of a company sat down with us, used my psyche skills made them do the HTP test just for entrainment you know, but always very happy to know more about people cos that is my passion. The CEO opened up to me and told me everything about his life, from being a teenager, a soldier to being a broke CEO and now a billionaire. i learned a lot, and he says  he learned a lot from me too. he kept on telling me lessons he learned from this girl named cookie. I thought I knew better comapred to anyone who was there. lately did i realize, i was in somekind of a networking pit. a lot of people went in and sat down shared things, explained things, did things, most of the time i was starring straight into their eyes, listening to everything they were to telling me. some would even butt in and draw illustrations. it was same old things i already knew about networking. I was actually keeping an open mind. but at the same wanting to go now and catch that bus going to my friends coffee shop. what kept my sitting my ass down was the hope of an interview, and that the CEO wanted to make me the new face of their new product. awesome right, i know.

              As the CEO was talking about his life experiences, i was about to tell him or advice to him to try to read THE SECRET. and suddenly the next thing that came out of his mouth was that the secret was the only thing that saved him and continually inspiring him to go fourth. Wow what a coninsidence, i have not even finish reading the book for crying out loud. this guy knew a lot, he was a billionaire but i looked even more richer than him. but he was made and sounded richer than everyone else.As time passed by, i suddenly got myself into the networking business, the CEO told me that i can join without even paying the somekind of memebership fee of 8888 pesos, it was somekind of a loan sense but no pressure. they were trying to convince me that they are doing more than business they are helping people help dreams. I was  very skeptical about it really, its just the fact that i take into great condideration that i really dont know anyone who would be up for this, especially taking again into complete consideration the negative connotations on the Networking Industry. At about 12:30 am. i met Ms. Cookie who was supposed to e the second interviewer, she was a also a Psychology major like me. She was like a life coach at 26 and was also making millions. She talked to me about a lot of things, of course most was about networking. But she told me more than I can imagine. I shared some of my experiences with her too my dreams and my past, she said we were going to be friends forever and she was going to help me. She held my hand. I felt like an angel was touching me. I felt warmth. Lately did i know, she was the CEO's fiance. WOW talk about conversing and joking arond with rich people. As i saw how the CEO and Ms. Cookie stared at each others eyes, i saw friendship, love, God and warmth. i felt family.She told me a lot of cool pscyhe things also, while i was listening to her, i was like i could listren to this woman for ages! i love every bit of it.

           You see people, one of my greatest dilemmas is that i cant afford to go to Stanford University, the CEO asked me do you think this is an accident, i said i think not, everything has reason. and i was very overwhelemed, i kept on praying to God what should i do, he didnt keep me form saying no to them. did he want me to be there?.

           It was about 2am when my friend caught me and told them that i should go home now, i had plans earlier to go visit my friends coffee shop. A young man who was part of the group was nice enough to gve me a ride, when i got to the cofee shop, I told my friends what happened to me and Networking, they were pretty much negative about it. I couldnt say less. instead, I shared to them what i learned. Ms. Cokie told me whenever im angry, sad, frustrated or happy always say this lines. God I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you and I love you. she told me about a story "zero limits" about a Doctor Nell, he healed 20 criminally insaned prisoners just by satring at their pictures while praying using this lines everyday without even meeting them.

            When i woke up this morning i felt revitalized, i felt so happy. and i didnt even feel God objecting about any of these. This is a new hope. no more pain. this is a new start to be congruent. God im sorry, please forgive, thank you and I love you.

My Phone got ran over.

this is not a sad entry so read on, this a blog filled with rejoice and gratefulness.of course I'm not thankful it got ran over thankful its still alive. this is a review for MOTOROLA EX128: it is sagasa resistant (run over resistant) beat that water and shock proof phones! My phone is so awesome it has hella scratches and tire marks but its as fix as a healthy phone! woohoo. I had Him at his best I didnt choose to let him be ran over but i definitely had him at his best. My phone is my boyfriend his name is Pierce cos i love that sexy name plus its so piercing haha but now im baptizing him, changing his name to "the HULK" damn you'd be so overwhelmed if you were in my place. so give those fancy phone who are as smart as Eisensteins brain and can do rpetty much everything. My phone may not have wifi but its sure sagasa proof! pierce a.k.a as "the HULK"

                           "better have him ugly than not have that pretty thang!"

Motorola Ex128 Features and Specifications

• 3.5 mm headset jack
• Battery : 910 mAh Li Ion
• Bluetooth v2.1
• Camera : 3 mega-pixel fixed focus
• Color : Steel Gray
• Dimensions : 107 x57 x 12.8mm
• Display : 3.2-inch WQVGA display with 240×400 resolution
• GPRS/EDGE
• Internal Antenna
• Media Format : AAC, MP3, MIDI, AAC+
• miniUSB
• Network : Quad band GSM
• standby time : up to 250 hours
• Talk time : Up to 200 minutes
• Video Capture: MPEG4 (15fps)
• Video Playback: H.263
• Weight : 102 gm

Positivity is the Key to Success

         "The secret" Im sure most of you have heard a thing or two about this book. The law of attraction. Ive been reading this book for quite sometime now and it has been one of the books that has helped me move on from my state of pain. but what is the book really all about.

        "The Secret is a best-selling 2006 self-help book written by Rhonda Byrne and based upon William Walker Atkinson's prior works and school of thought. A film based on The Secret was released before the book in DVD format. The tenet of the book is that focused positive thinking can have life-changing results such as increased wealth, health, and happiness. After being featured in two episodes of Oprah, the book reached the top of the New York Times bestseller list. 

The book has also reached a high level of notoriety and criticism from those who claim that the book misleads readers with its claims of positive thinking being able to influence a reader's life and real-world outcomes. The film is largely influenced by Wallace D. Wattles' 1910 book The Science of Getting Rich.

Rhonda Byrne has written a follow-up to The Secret called The Power, which was released on August 17, 2010. Byrne was inspired to write The Power after answering several thousand letters from readers of The Secret." (wikipedia.com)

        When you think positively everything follows, the law of attraction works in a matter of knowing what you really want. when you think about it, when you really want something you wont just think about it, you'll certainly do something about it. Id just like to share a short experience that has happened to me recently.

       Im taking up my college degree for Bachelor in science in Psychology in one of the most prestigious school in manila, Philippines. My father is doctor of psychology and he has greatly inspired my life. as i was making more of myself, wanting more out of life. all my life Ive felt and imagined myself being a successful psychotherapist and be able to take up my education in universities that I have dreamed since I was young. as i was searching through the web about good schools to take my masters abroad i stumbled upon Stanford University. i know everyone knows how famous and prestigious this school is. as a Filipino coming from a middle class family i cannot surely afford this school. though UST (University of Santo Tomas) definitely qualifies for their standard. there is still a lot of complications concerning my  application. for about a year now if been consistently imagining my self walking through the halls of Stanford university, enjoying my independent life in the states while studying the field that most interests me. Ive been trying to find out in Stanford university's website of things that they require. I wasn't able to give much time about it since i was still busy with my school works. after months of not doing anything about it but still continuing imagining my self. during this time i have not had any idea on how "the secret" works. but the pleasure of imagining myself as a student of Stanford fueled my thoughts. after a few months my cousin from Norway email me and told me she was going to California to visit some friends. and i know, wanting Stanford so much i still had no idea where it was. when i searched for it, suddenly boom Stanford was located in California. so i asked her if she could help with it and inquire for my application as a foreign student. after a few days my classmate April texted me and told me that she has a surprise gift for me. the next day she gave me a ballpen from Stanford university, it was such a coincidence it was like God was granting every creation he has to remind me it was going to happen. The thing that surprised me the most about that gift is that, the story behind it. April opened a closet and suddenly the ball pen appeared out of no where, stating that non of her family members ever went to Stanford so it was completely a sign. i knew it was, i knew in my positive mind it was , i knew in the very core of my heart it was, and i knew in my faith that God destined me so. It might sound overly exaggerated for most of you, but just like i said i came from a country that they describe as third world. I'm from a family of having not enough money to send me to Stanford but still everything was still setting into place. 

       Last week i tried to really know what was i supposed to do and requirements needed, i could take up examinations here in the Philippines. i emailed Stanford and they replied immediately. I'm still on the first few steps on the path to my dreams. and I know there are still tons more of surprises to come. keeping my head positive and my heart full of dreams. i thank the lord for giving me this chance to be able to feel what its like to dream, what its like live life. i will update you with my progress. 

     I hope all of you are inspired with my blog, this is not about actually worshiping this book or this law, this is a guide for you, this is an instrument of God in making those deserving for their dreams to come true. so pray and empower your thoughts with your dreams. never doubt your self because this is the nature of man.

"KNOW WHAT YOU WANT"

A new beginning

This is a new beginning for me friends, this is a new Jane. A very refreshed and positive Jane. you might find this funny after reading my former blogs. yes Ive been sad, been dramatic and been down. and now i haven't posted for a very long time. and my friend April inspired me to write again. she is also a co-blogger here in blogspot. and she is one of my closest. We've both been through a lot and at the same time we have learned a lot for the past couple of months.

                    New updates: Im so single and so ready to focus on my self from now on. Ive been really trying my best to get there and i promise you I am getting there. Ill tell more of of what happened for my next blog. for now Id just like to say how Ive missed you all. looking forward to a new start with you guys. so keep reading my blogs ! Have a nice day. Back to work! :)