im in the moment of my life where every part of it is very fucked up but im still smiling honey. its very hard, i wanna run wanna scream but all it feels like is that im screaming with my mouth shut when its really open.
i turned my back to someone very awesome who gave his heart to me and same as me. he has let go of our relationship and after a few days he asking for my heart again but bad timing cos i cant anymore i was dating someone new already but someone he knows too. but now it seems like he is taking me for granted, well to be honest he already got what most guys want, i dont care im not hurt about that , im hurt because i was ready to take it seriously after everything he told me . i was ready to try" but i guess shit happens. im psychologically imbalanced, some people hate me, my family hates me and i hate my brother and now thiz , the only escape from reality becomes a reality. sigh* im still young there still time for mr. right. not finding him now is a step closer to finding him. its just very hard when every second feels like mins and every hour feels like days on my mind. what should i do. kill me. thats all.
