Yesterday was a Saturday, came from my apartment immediately and went straight home to our house in Makati. It took me so long for i got lost in Gateway mall. i know effer right. i got home at around past 6pm. i took a shower and changed, i opted for a look that can see my most promising edges of my face and body, base on what i see though! haha went to Robinsons Galleria Mall to meet with someone who was going to interview me for modelling. Thats right folks you heard me right, im five foot 3 dark brown hair with a mix of red cellophane in it, throw in some borwn skinned big nosed indian-filipina girl. I was so excited, so i sat there meeting this friend who has a friend that has friend and believe me it goes on. i waited for the first interviewer after a few hours bought cofee and recieved a bad news that she wasnt coming but kept my hopes high cos my friend says another interviewer was coming. It was about 8pm when i got to our meeting place starbucks robinsons galleria, at about 9pm the i got the news about the first interviewer. At about that time, my friends friend who was a CEO of a company sat down with us, used my psyche skills made them do the HTP test just for entrainment you know, but always very happy to know more about people cos that is my passion. The CEO opened up to me and told me everything about his life, from being a teenager, a soldier to being a broke CEO and now a billionaire. i learned a lot, and he says he learned a lot from me too. he kept on telling me lessons he learned from this girl named cookie. I thought I knew better comapred to anyone who was there. lately did i realize, i was in somekind of a networking pit. a lot of people went in and sat down shared things, explained things, did things, most of the time i was starring straight into their eyes, listening to everything they were to telling me. some would even butt in and draw illustrations. it was same old things i already knew about networking. I was actually keeping an open mind. but at the same wanting to go now and catch that bus going to my friends coffee shop. what kept my sitting my ass down was the hope of an interview, and that the CEO wanted to make me the new face of their new product. awesome right, i know.
As the CEO was talking about his life experiences, i was about to tell him or advice to him to try to read THE SECRET. and suddenly the next thing that came out of his mouth was that the secret was the only thing that saved him and continually inspiring him to go fourth. Wow what a coninsidence, i have not even finish reading the book for crying out loud. this guy knew a lot, he was a billionaire but i looked even more richer than him. but he was made and sounded richer than everyone else.As time passed by, i suddenly got myself into the networking business, the CEO told me that i can join without even paying the somekind of memebership fee of 8888 pesos, it was somekind of a loan sense but no pressure. they were trying to convince me that they are doing more than business they are helping people help dreams. I was very skeptical about it really, its just the fact that i take into great condideration that i really dont know anyone who would be up for this, especially taking again into complete consideration the negative connotations on the Networking Industry. At about 12:30 am. i met Ms. Cookie who was supposed to e the second interviewer, she was a also a Psychology major like me. She was like a life coach at 26 and was also making millions. She talked to me about a lot of things, of course most was about networking. But she told me more than I can imagine. I shared some of my experiences with her too my dreams and my past, she said we were going to be friends forever and she was going to help me. She held my hand. I felt like an angel was touching me. I felt warmth. Lately did i know, she was the CEO's fiance. WOW talk about conversing and joking arond with rich people. As i saw how the CEO and Ms. Cookie stared at each others eyes, i saw friendship, love, God and warmth. i felt family.She told me a lot of cool pscyhe things also, while i was listening to her, i was like i could listren to this woman for ages! i love every bit of it.
You see people, one of my greatest dilemmas is that i cant afford to go to Stanford University, the CEO asked me do you think this is an accident, i said i think not, everything has reason. and i was very overwhelemed, i kept on praying to God what should i do, he didnt keep me form saying no to them. did he want me to be there?.
It was about 2am when my friend caught me and told them that i should go home now, i had plans earlier to go visit my friends coffee shop. A young man who was part of the group was nice enough to gve me a ride, when i got to the cofee shop, I told my friends what happened to me and Networking, they were pretty much negative about it. I couldnt say less. instead, I shared to them what i learned. Ms. Cokie told me whenever im angry, sad, frustrated or happy always say this lines. God I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you and I love you. she told me about a story "zero limits" about a Doctor Nell, he healed 20 criminally insaned prisoners just by satring at their pictures while praying using this lines everyday without even meeting them.
When i woke up this morning i felt revitalized, i felt so happy. and i didnt even feel God objecting about any of these. This is a new hope. no more pain. this is a new start to be congruent. God im sorry, please forgive, thank you and I love you.
